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We’ve broken the Zoom barrier!

Every Wednesday night at 7:30 pm (EST), I will be running a 45 minute Yoga nidra, guided meditation class. You can find out more about these sessions here: https://tabithakot.com/online-yoga/ It is my hope that, over time, we can grow these online offerings to include the physical practice of Yoga as well. Stay tuned!

If you’ve been part of these sessions and have enjoyed them, please feel free to share this information. Let’s support each other in the practice. 🙂

May we “see” each other soon.

Blessings,

Tabitha

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While in the shower the other day, I was brought back to a conversation I had with a student right before this Covid-19 emergency broke wide open.  D. has a real interest in meditation and silent retreats.  That night she was asking me about the Vipassana retreats held up around Barrie, ON.  I’ve never attended these retreats but have met several people who have.  They’re intense.  10 days, 20 days, 30 days of silence and seated meditation.  In this tradition, food is limited, contact with others is prohibited, as is physical exercise, reading, writing, texting, and so on.  The day’s schedule is set and does not waiver.  Hours and hours of seated meditation with a videotaped teaching by Goenka in the evenings.  There is no hugging.  No consoling your neighbour should they fall apart.  No eye contact.  You exist within a community but are very much focused on being a single cell of the community.  These retreats are meant to take you deep inside. They turn up the heat of transformation.  They are meant to strip you down so you can emerge a truer form of yourself.

That night at the condo D. asked, “How do you prepare for one of these things?”  I had to admit that I did not know.

I remembered all of this the other day and, standing in the shower, I burst out laughing.  I spoke to D (possibly out loud just so I could hear a human voice) and said, “THIS! This is how you prepare.”  This strange Covid-19 situation.  Right now I think I would take it even one step further and say this is the retreat and this virus is our best teacher for it.  Nuts, right?  But hear me out.

We are being forced inside.  For those on total lockdown, care needs to be taken about how much food is consumed so that there’s enough to last the duration.  The rest of us are left to our own devices.  Many are able to work from home but many others, like myself, are out of work.  There is so…much…time.  And this is where it gets interesting.  Out of a regular routine, out of our connections to our work-time labels (teacher, engineer, etc.), nowhere to go because things are shut down, unable to meet up with friends and family to pass the time, our shit comes bubbling up.  We find ourselves heating up.  We become impatient, moody, argumentative.  We search everywhere for a distraction.  And let me tell you, there is no shortage of Covid-19 “distract yourself” stuff out there.  Online classes abound.  Downloadable colouring pages to keep the kids occupied.  E-books to read.  And, of course, there are all the streaming services offering visual entertainment to numb your mind.

But none of it really seems to be helping us feel better.  Everywhere I look people are freaking out.  But damnit, aren’t we making like it’s business as usual?  Hey, we have video conferencing and the internet!  We can keep working like it’s a regular work week.  Miss your Yoga?  Here are 3300 online options for you.  You, Yoga teacher.  You’re out of work?  How about filming some classes for sale, or record some meditations?

I’ll admit it, I’ve been sucked into it as well.  I’ve felt like a colossal failure for not hopping on the bandwagon when everyone else seems to have.  And then, last night, I came across this blessed quote by Emma Zeck:

With this open time

You do not have to write the next bestselling novel

You do not have to get in the best shape of your life

You do not have to start that podcast….

What if we became curious with this free time,

& had no agenda other than to experience being?

When I read those words, something in me let go.  This is no time for me to go on like nothing unusual is happening.  I’m on retreat.  This is no time for me to be a leader or a teacher.  I’m on retreat.  This is no time for me to spark up the old webcam and pretend like I have my shit together because, my friends, my life and everything all around me is on totally new ground, and my stance is pretty unsteady.

I’m on retreat.  Covid-19 retreat.  And so are you.  The whole world has joined this transformative process.  When I drop my trauma, my drama and my suffering for a moment, I am in absolute awe over this whole thing.  To stand here as a witness.  To know there will be another side to this and that I will likely be here to see that other side.  It is so intense it leaves me speechless.

The fire of deep transformation burns like nothing else.  It is meant to take us down and incinerate us so we can rise up, stronger than we were at the beginning.  Blacksmiths know this as they forge metals.  Alchemists know this as they use fire to transform materials to create something new and unique.  And Yogi-s know this.  So they fast and sit and meditate in silence for hours and days and years.

What would happen if we all symbolically stripped bare and sat right at the centre of this enormous fire?  I guess we’ll find out, hunh?  Cuz we’re in it, like it or not.  I do hope to meet you on the other side.  😉  I can’t wait to see what this Phoenix will look like.

Offering so much Love,

Tabitha

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When I teach, especially at the condo, I witness time and time again students bursting through the door as if they were being hunted by something.  I suppose they are.  I suppose we all are at some point or another.  Irritating bosses.  TIME.  A terrifying diagnosis.  Relationship breakdown.  The climate crisis.  An inability to sleep.  The list is endless.  We can hold it gently in the arms of the umbrella term “STRESS”.

We need to rest but we don’t know how.  We need the mind to grow calm so we can make crucial decisions, but it keeps rambling on and on, scaring the crap out of us.  We can’t do it alone.  We need help but we can’t seem to find the help we need.

Over the years I have seen how guided meditation/visualization presses PAUSE on the stress button and gifts us with the time to rest and regenerate without effort.  Here is my gift to you, loved ones, a meditation that I hope helps you crack open a little bit of space (or a lot) and helps you find a little bit of peace (or a lot).

This is something I absolutely love to do.  I love to help people rest.  I love to help them relax.  I love taking them on a journey deep inside where they come across solutions and answers and insight.  If there’s something you’re working through and you think a personalized meditation will help, reach out.  I’d be thrilled to discuss it further.  And if you use this mediation and find it to be helpful, please do share.  Gifts are made more precious when they’re shared.

Click here to receive your downloadable file.

Rest easy.

Much love to you,

Tabitha

 

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